It doesn’t take much to make me cry. Happy tears, sad tears, scared tears, mad tears, moved tears, worried tears – it doesn’t matter the mood or the occasion. I am a crier.
As a result, I am rarely surprised to find myself crying and, honestly, I’m not even really embarrassed by it much anymore. It’s just who I am. Crying is my spiritual gift, people.
But a few weeks ago at Allume, I realized that something other than my normal neuroses might be at play when I found myself unable to stop the tears running down my face during a session about writing. My friend Annie talked to us about writing where you are, writing about what you’re going through right now – but doing it in a healthy, safe, appropriate way.
If you know Annie Downs, you know that she is hilarious – and her presentation was no exception. But while I laughed at every single one of her jokes, I also cried, nonstop, through the entire hour.
Early on in the session, Annie shared with us that when she began writing, she informed God that she would write anything for Him, but she would not write about her weight or about being single. Of course, God eventually compelled her to write about both of those things – like He does.
After telling us a bit about her journey, Annie finished her presentation by saying, “Write that thing. Talk about that thing.” As I wrote her words in my notebook, I swallowed a sob and wondered, What on earth is wrong with me?!?
I can’t tell you what my “thing” is. Not because I’m hiding it or because I’m too scared to talk about it. I really don’t know what it is! I don’t know WHY I was such a tear-soaked mess in Annie’s session. I don’t know what chord she was striking or why I can’t process it enough today to figure out what thing is messing me up.
What I suspect, though, is that my thing is not a topic that I don’t want to dig into or a personal experience I don’t want to share or a weakness I don’t want to reveal. I think my thing is actually a book.
See, I want to write a book. I do. I’ve even been brave enough to tell a few close friends that I am going to write a book . . . soon. But when I sat down with my friends at Squee this spring and actually set goals and dates to make that book happen? Something inside me froze.
I want to write a book. But I am terrified. That – I’m pretty sure that is my thing.
But Annie told me to talk about it, that thing. So I’m talking about it. (Okay, Annie? Sheesh. Quit telling me what to do.) I’m telling you. I want to write a book, and right now, this month, I’m trying to write a book.
Well, not a whole book. But I have officially begun writing a book proposal. (Okay, Holley? Stop yelling at me!)
BREATHE . . .
Now that it’s out, I’m going to ask you to help me. Keep me accountable. Ask me how it’s going. Don’t let me chicken out. Pray for me. Remind me that this really is a good idea. Please? Thank you, friends.
But, wait! There’s more! [I can’t help it. I cannot resist an opportunity to use my infomercial voice.]
I’ve got two announcements for you, and I think you’re going to like them.
Announcement #1: Starting tomorrow (Tuesday, November 13), I’m going to host a weekly chat on my Facebook page. Nothing deep, just a way for us to get to know each other better and have a little fun. Every Tuesday night at 8:00 pm CST, I’ll be on Facebook to talk with you all for about an hour. I’ll have questions prepared for us to discuss, but I’m open to your questions or topics as well. What would you like to talk about tomorrow night?
I hope you’ll join us. It’s going to be fun!
Announcement #2: In one month (Monday, December 17), I’m releasing a new ebook about the many surprises I found when I became a stay-at-home mom. Based on posts I’ve published here on the blog, it will be a funny and hopefully encouraging read for moms of all kinds. Whether you stay home, work from home, work full-time outside the home or something in between, you’ll find something you identify with (and, probably, can laugh at) in this book.
But the big news about the ebook is that it will be FREE to my subscribers! So if you’re here for the first time or maybe you just visit occasionally, today is the day you should hit that subscribe button up there. Let’s just make it official, eh? You click subscribe and poof! I’ll send you my ebook next month (plus, hello? every other post I publish at this place!).
Well, certainly that is enough excitement for one day. But I’d love to hear your thoughts on all of this! Or, really, your thoughts on anything. What’s on your mind today?
That gorgeous print up above is for sale at my friend Dawn’s website. If my name is on on your Christmas list, please go check it out!